The Undeserved

NS Camp Hall of Fame!

2010-11-14T08:00:00.000-08:00

An Outstanding Weekend With the Father And His sons.Thank God for:

Him. He made everything different. In fact, He made ALL the difference. Through great, well-timed words, circumstances and fantastic pple.

Chong: For being so on-the-ball and diligent as the Camp Commandant and liasing for all the transports and $ collection and the, erm, surprise Birthday celebrationsss

Gavin: Pressing on in the P&W sessions despite losing your voice and supporting the program by mobilising people to the different segments

Junwei: Doing the games, holding the fort for leading PM and stepping in last minute in times of dire need for guitarist

Fun-sized Melvin: For doing the Teaching point slides so creatively, for helming Keyboard and liaison with MSC and the wonderful entertainment of 13 T****Ks

Other-Melvin: Assist camp commandant (not even sure if this role is known, but it existed), taking 1 weeks leave to prep, putting up with high lvl requirements

Weisong: Last minute guitarist for the bulk of the P&W, stressful but went thru it willingly anyway and also for doing up the games

Daniel: Was tired right after book out but came as early as possible, helping out with the games, making best efforts to incorporate the values to the activities

Dennis: Playing 2nd Keys for the 1st time in such a setting and being so humble to learn

CY: Helping out with the violin really does make a difference and also stepping in to give helpful advice when everyone's panicking at the last minute.

Bindi and Wei En: The original guitarists who BOTH fell sick but made due efforts to contribute and hold out as best as as possible, can see their heart in this

Edmund & Chenxiang: Helping me out with MM clips and lyrics at the most intense of moments, kinda saved the day too

Louis Hor-Fun: Helping out with the vocals and music, pulling the cords on the annoying ringing phone (i like), stemming interruptions to our meetings

PLUS Kenny, Gilly & Hush Puppy: together coming up with the song with only a prac of 40min or less for the birthday celebrationsss, greatly appreciate it

Chengwei: Not much frontline action seen, but being part of the background prep for the whole camp and helping out the camp comm all these few weeks

And to the many many of you cool dudes who came despite being tired after your crazy NS schedule, hungry to receive and being a part of this whole PLAN!!!

Why Am I Doing This Again?

2010-08-12T07:00:00.000-07:00

The more one serves in the church, the more imperfection one will see.

Somehow, the question pops up so much more nowadays - why doesn't the system change to suit this and that, why do i not feel part of the group, why don't we get to meet so often (or rather, depending on who, why meet so often) etc

So MY question is, "Why don't we stop looking at our needs/wants and be generous enough to meet the needs of others?"

Now that i think of it, the reason why i derive headaches from discipleship plans, structures, dynamics of the group, relationships among the group, rate of maturity of the people, others-focused momentum of the individuals etc, it's all simply because there are needs to be met. An average of 45 lives worth of needs to be met is impossible feat for anyone person.

In any case, my love for the church will still persevere.

Shout Out to God with a Voice of Praise

2010-06-03T20:54:00.001-07:00

When I think about...

How you saved me

How you heal me

How you pick me up

How you turned me around

How you placed my feet on solid ground

Let my life bring a genuine offering of praise

End of ID2010

2010-05-31T05:47:00.000-07:00

2.5 days of heaven on earth just flies past so quickly. Kinda miss the past few days we had, witnessing the Spirit moving through the lives and hearts of people. Ministering unto others drew me a lot into his embrace; the Word/encouragement that God wants to speak came just so naturally in a supernatural way. Truthfully, this is one of the few occasions that I felt so compelled by the Spirit to speak the truth and give some hard knocks in such a real and personal way. I'm glad I abandoned my plan and took His cue.

It's the end of the conference, but it cannot be the end of this whole deal about intentionally building biblical disciples.

It's time for old wineskin to be replaced with new ones, before the wineskin burst and put the new wine to waste.

ID 2010

2010-05-28T11:14:00.000-07:00

It's gonna be an exciting conference! Though I think it's gonna take another toll me sia. Gotta depend on God for a reymar word and to really look forward to receive from Him. God, speak to us, through the leaders, our lives and the different programs tomorrow.

Bug Off

2010-05-03T09:15:00.001-07:00

some things are just too alluring.

and they do get alluring in an annoying way.

smite me.

God Indeed Provides

2010-03-30T18:49:00.000-07:00

It's easy to be on a high one day and the very next to be at the bottom of the pit.

Momentum, once stopped is hard to build again.

It is so important to be cherished and maintained.

In any case, God does provide EVERYTHING, for EVERY lesson to be learnt. Jonah 4:6-8

I can't believe

2010-03-11T17:38:00.000-08:00

I can't believe how persevering God's love is for me. It's too unfailing.

I can't believe that things are at where they are right now. It's too baffling.

I still can't believe I'm making such decisions. It's just suicidal.

I do believe though, that this year is gonna be a good, good year >.< ~

If only...

2010-03-01T06:12:00.001-08:00

For some reason, choosing and holding on to what's ideally right is always so tiring and challenging. At some point, due to human weakness or perhaps even human need (understandably), the easier route is taken with the 2nd best option.

Not the best, but understandable.

If only I would just choose the easy way out, one that is so much more comfortable, so much more carefree. Plus, I'll minimize the risk of standing out from the rest, as everyone moves down that humanly understandable route.

We've all reached a stage where we could make our choices without much "barriers" standing in our paths anyway.

But somehow, a part of me just can't bear to choose that compromise. It does gets a bit burdensome at times, but I do hope I remain that way.

With more love and desire to please the audience of one, the greater the tenacity to stay on course.

Breakthrough 24 Feb

2010-02-04T02:03:00.000-08:00

"They will return to it and remove all its vile images and detestable idols. I will give them an undivided heart and put a new spirit in them; I will remove from them their heart of stone and give them a heart of flesh. Then they will follow my decrees and be careful to keep my laws. They will be my people, and I will be their God."
- Eze 11:18-20

As action was taken to remove idols, God removed the barriers in Israel's hearts that they will follow Him.

As the external barriers are being removed, the internal secret thoughts must alsobe dealt with seriously! Breakthrough 24 Feb!

Cheat Code.Com

2010-01-28T06:13:00.000-08:00

Repentance is widely known as a "cheat code" means of escaping from sin that many freely and liberally employ, to the point that it seems almost like a right. But,

Restore us to yourself, O LORD, that we may return;
renew our days as of old - Lamentations 5:21

It is not 1st for His people to return to the Lord and then be restored. In fact, without God's approval, we can't even repent.

God has absolute authority over all things. It is God who graciously allows us to repent, not because of our ability to repent that we are made right with God. Recognizing that is the 1st step to reconciliation.

Curious Revelation

2010-01-23T08:11:00.000-08:00

They were sharing about Olympics during morning assembly and one picture suddenly piqued my curiosity. Decided to check it out. A small glimpse of my findings and revelation.

The flare burns at more than 2,000 degrees Celsius!

Olympic flame goes underwater
The torch spent three minutes in a popular diving spot

Its intensity is produced by a mix of oxygen-generating chemicals as well as the combustible element magnesium in a finely powdered form. This causes enough pressure from within to stop seawater from entering the tube that contains the combustion.

Place me like a seal over your heart,
like a seal on your arm;
for love is as strong as death,
its jealousy unyielding as the grave.
It burns like blazing fire,
like a mighty flame.

Many waters cannot quench love;
rivers cannot wash it away.
If one were to give
all the wealth of his house for love,
it would be utterly scorned.

- Song of Solomon 8:6-7

The tide of worldly desires threatens to quench the passion for Christ.
The combustion of the flame of passion for Christ has got to be at an intensity strong enough to withstand the water from extinguishing the torch.

So Challenging

2009-12-15T09:56:00.000-08:00

In an amazing and horrifying twist of events, I'm now stuck overnight at Youth 2009 Level Up Camp.... So decided to use the time to blog! There was a heartwarming response to serve God and a great time of Praise and Worship during the Re-Generation Prayer Meet. (expected nothing less from Youth)

Even as Ps Shirls rallied the Youths to be a generation of people to declare God's goodness to the next and also to be faithful with how much God has blessed them with, I realised that these are not exclusively Youth principles. It is a heartbeat of Hope Church, or rather, it should be the heartbeat of every Christian. To be filled, so that we are ready to pour out and empty ourselves into other lives, and then be filled gain.

Every work that we build will be tested by fire. The lives that we build will go through the test of flame. Only those of good solid materials will withstand the test, not a work that's made up of merely straw. Indeed, lives must be changed in order to carry on and complete the seemingly insurmountable, immensely challenging task of building the church right.

The 12 Great Revelations

2009-11-30T08:16:00.000-08:00

Just came back from GC! It's like having CG everyday, staying with the other bros at the villa. Truly an eye opener indeed! No, I dun mean the God-given revelations, not yet anyways. There were really lots of other, erm.. truly amazing things that I've learnt:

- SJ found a new passion in translation

- TSL makes a very good tour guide

- NS ministry can from the new dance club headed by BJW, they were diligently learning and practising Korean dance every night.

- JX has got a very unique way of escaping farts

- Unsightly clothings, esp really personal ones, can end up anywhere, even in the toilet bowl (It's still an unsolved mystery)

- YS has a fav new alphabet: M

- YS is actually Ju-On

- Sumo wrestling (and wrestler) becomes a really common sight (OMG, JX is evil! lol)

- I seem to only fall asleep after Lwee starts snoring, weird

- I am too dangerous in the air (sorry darryl! lol...)

- I am a pikachu

- Most importantly, all these lives that we are investing in can really make all the difference to change the world!

Am really blessed by the fellowship and affirmations. They really MATTER alot to me. Just reminds me that everything we do here in this ministry is so impt. Go go guys! Gotta make all the RMs spent worthwhile!

To-Do List

2009-11-17T02:46:00.000-08:00

In my attempt to come up with a fairly consistent weekly to-do list, these are some key things that I need to attend to ona regular basis. This list isn't exhaustive either. (unfortunately)

1) Meet the key pillars of the ministry
2) Monitoring and follow through of plans
3) Shepherding
4) Study Stats
5) Deliberate Discipleship Opportunities
6) Visit and Feedback for CG
7) Public Role (depends on the roster)
8) Evaluate Long Term Plan
9) Personal Outreach
10)Follow Through on Special Cases
11)Submit Lesson Plans
12)Marking
13)CCA
14)QT/Journal
15)F&P
16)and the list goes on...

In the ideal effective life, these things should be promptly carried out. And hey presto! More often then not, I do LESS THAN HALF of these things. Plus, random misc items do come along with different seasons of the year. Ha ha ha! Hmm.. What do i do when the full effects of next school term kicks in?

Success is not defined by how much we do, but rather, doing what's needed to be done at the right time and doing it well. So now, to find and discern the right thing at the right time... OHMomommomomomomomomomomomomommmmmmmm....

Home

2009-11-01T22:56:00.000-08:00

31 October 2009 marks the official 1st day that a small rented 3-room flat in Toa Payoh became my new home, at least for the next 6 months or so. It's been a hectic time, packing and packing and now, whatever's packed needs to be unpacked! LOL!

Seeing the apartment which I used to live in become so bare and spacious, it really did stir something me. It dawned upon me how much memories it stored for me for the past 17 or so years. I also realized that I'm one that only "feels it" when the moment of event draws near. It's the same with service-leading, going for interviews, moving house etc. Everything is tranquil before that, like the calm before the storm, until just minutes before the storm comes.

Really need to get used to the "new" (it's a pretty old estate) and smaller apartment. Before I know it, the time will come when I'll be moving out again.

Of course, there's no place here that is truly home. Even if it's for 10 years, 60 years, there'll still come the day I really move into a brand new permanent home. Hopefully, i'll get a really big room then. :)

In my Father's house are many rooms; if it were not so, I would have told you. I am going there to prepare a place for you. - Jn 14:2

Humility to Believe

2009-10-10T22:41:00.000-07:00

Lots of self-discovery has been made recently! And some are certainly not comfortable to know or even face up to. But regardless, they all brought me to the same conclusion: I am humbled.

I am humbled by how spectacular and powerful are the strengths that God has put into the different people I see.

I am humbled by how there is so much more room for improvements for myself and the ministry.

I am humbled by how I am still humanly weak, imperfect, powerless and prone to fall and fail.

And,

I am humbled by how God can still work through such an imperfect vessel in a powerful way.

I believe, therefore I said, "I am greatly afflicted." ~Ps 116:10~

I believe, therefore I can face the reality that we are still plagued by many troubles and weaknesses. The reality that we are still afflicted by sin and its consequences. The reality that we have not taken hold of it yet. And I believe that this race can still be completed despite the many stumbles and falls.

"Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus."
- Phi 3:13-14

What I've Under-Esteemed

2009-09-02T08:37:00.000-07:00

I remembered how people used to say how having a pacer running with you can make such a great difference in your 2.4km timings. I didn't really think much about it until I experienced it myself. At the moment when the desire to give up, slow down or stop comes in its full intensity, the encouragement and cheerleading from the pacer can make all the difference.

And I remember how the urge to just throw in the towel gets so intense in different phases of my life. When studying for a major exam felt so overwhelming. When the responsibility of the platoon came on me as a newbie in BMT. When the pressure and expectations from superiors gets really demanding. The ultimate pacer and cheerleader is there, faithful even when I'm unfaithful.

It becomes even more essential to me that I learn to do what has been done to me unto others as well. It makes so much difference and it means so much to others lives.

Is This Worth It?

2009-08-21T06:58:00.000-07:00

In times where ideals seem far and not practical to achieve, it seems wiser to settle for something less.

Isn't it a waste of effort and time? Is it really best to keep at it? Is it really the way?

No one can really know. I only know that if He deserves it, then it's worth to keep fighting for the best and if we're called to settle for something less, a clear signal will be given.

To Carry This Purpose

2009-08-09T01:02:00.000-07:00

The purpose to pass it on - Living for others rather than self.
The perseverance to endure - Not resigning to self-preservation despite the fumbles.
The passion to please the CO - Our utmost for the Highest

I've understood the disastrous effects of self-preservation abit better. I'm willing to expend this life for others. These are hard values to live out but by the same power that conquered the grave, I will lend my shoulders and hands to carry this burden.

Feel free to keep me accountable in this.

An Achievement!

2009-08-08T08:07:00.000-07:00

Woot! I managed to complete Devil May Cry 4! I almost cried playing this challenging game... Really, my hand-eye co-ordination is probably at the lowest end of the entire human race. Playing games that require properly timed jumps, well-timed button tappings for complicated combos and quick and accurate fingerings is a major no-no for me. And it is known to be one of the coolest games with decent difficulty in it. In fact, I had not much issues with the enemies and bosses. Not once did i KO. Sadly... I had to revive myself TWICE at only one part where there was a laser trap.... Yes, it's pathetic i know BUT I DID IT!!! It's the feeling u get after beating Sephiroth in KH I & II, beating Omega weapons in FF8 and so on and so forth. It's a cool PS3 game. But i played it on PC. Which means it's even HARDER with only the keyboard and not game console. So proud of myself. yeah... LOL.

Random bits

2009-08-06T07:11:00.000-07:00

It's been some time yo! There's a funeral wake downstairs my house. Don't wanna have it for my blog so i'll post something.

Oh, it's gonna be the Chinese 7th month soon! Realised that i've forgotten tt this festival still exists. If u still consider that as a festival.. LOL. It doesn't really affect me tho.

Listening to my sis playing her violin now... She's asking me for the tune of the song cuz she can't make out what she's playing... =.= At least i can recognise the first phrase. It belongs to the piece "Minuet 3"! waiting for her to master this song soon. Heh.

"May the king extend your gold scepter and grant us our request. Have mercy and grant us our petition."

Really Really Really Long Post

2009-07-19T08:30:00.000-07:00

Realised that i've never really blogged about my experiences doing relief teaching so far, so shall post bout the diff interesting characters tt came along my way. It's a really long post, so u've been warned. Just skip it if u dun wanna read them. Oh, there's too many people so can't really list everyone, no hard feelings if i left some pple out k? Since most are left out anyways... LOL. Some of these pple will probably not read this too but i'll just list them anyways. So, these are some of the peeps tt have really made my time at NCHS kinda fun in some ways, real special thanks to:

The Crazy and Whacky 2A
The classroom itself is already like in another world on its own! lol.. In fact, it's the ONLY class tt i've never felt stressed in b4, simply cuz it's like going into lala-land! U guys are bright enuff to learn while playing, so yup, had real fun. Will always remember YT, JH, Ralph, Edmund and gang for being the greatest havoc! never fail to "welcome" me in the corridor. Still rmb them trying to strip WX in class some more.. oops! The gals are either too noisy or too bright.. but tt's typical la.

Hmm... Of course i'll never forget Mr Teng Kai Siang! The 2nd time in class, asked everyone for workbook, he say lost and will buy one more. But when I walked to the back, realised Hao xian got 2 workbooks... and he say one of them is Scott's and he just dun wanna touch it... LOL. Still rmb tt how u wanted to leave a test early, so u tried to bluff me by saying tt training started already. When i ask wat time start, u saw the clock wrongly and said 230pm, when it was still 130pm... But I'm glad tt you've improved in your grades, somehow, you've proven tt u can do well when u put in effort!

oh, and Daryl Heng! Gotta keep up the hardwork! Don't think tt you'll always heng heng do well k!? Together with Dyon, HH and gang, 2Gs a real bunch of monkeys to handle eh. But u guys are really good pple too, very jiang yi qi!!!

Zhan Chun and Elvin are always so helpful. I'll nominate them as the best IT reps.. LOL. Very initiative, better than allll the other classes too. Dun worry, u all will grow much taller! (even taller than nicole too, her height will stop ard there le). Soon, u'll be able to touch the top of the projector w/o the chair (like me!).

Jun Han: I'll always rmb how he loves the broom. Wonder how long they'll remain a couple. Always the monkey god. Jason will forever give the sleepy aura (yawnz). Somehow, the way u all improve really encourages me alot! Afrah and Jerilene are the only gals tt ever dared to openly ask me bout Daryl Ng!!! LOL, one the most fun and cool peeps to converse with.

Well... surprisingly... i think 2F's the class tt really got the most real scolding from me, simply cuz they're always late from Art... LOL. No hard feelings, just gotta get rid of tt slacky reputation! Still, pple like Cedric never fails to amaze me with his competitiveness to win sia! Will never forget Ben too! He really reminds me of The Thing from Fantastic Four. (Maybe also as crazy strong too!).

Think I'll miss seeing Chuan Geng's Jumpstart!!! Man, shld have made him do it more often in class!!!! heh heh. He's one of the coolest guy ard tho he doesn't seems like it. Hmm.. ya, think i scolded someone for laughing at him learning how to play badminton, cuz he's seriously cool! Benjamin, all the best to your blog! U just started it, so hope u have fun with it.. Lol.. never fails to yo me for nothing online... Hmm... John's mum told me John only study history and science! Oh man... glad u were inspired to study for my subject(^^) BUT must study for the rest too!!!! Lizhong is surprisingly smart sia, and Roy.. still rmb he made the class quiet on my behalf! Thx! lol...

From 2E, well, thx Chloe for lending me 1st hands! You're an awfully helpful person, even in other times. Alicia's pretty headstrong... I rmb how she bombard me with "Y can't s'pore do other things about the Jap???" oh man! lol.. Hmm.. Think my first time really knowing these pple is when they helped out during the total defence day.. playing with the fire extinguisher... Alicia and Erica were helping out with the sweets-giving and causing chaos with the chops!! Hmm.. there were a few other imps running ard too... can't exactly rmb tho!

Hmm.. seems like tt's about it eh? These are the pple that really made my day in NCHS! All the remarkable pple have been mentioned RITE??? NAH! of course not... these pple will murder me if i fail to mention them:

The 3 Little Pigs
- Pig 1: Tallest (currently) and most cunning (best in acting gentlemanly and good student!!!) But I've seen behind the mask and exposed him!!!!
ok, he's good at dao-ing too, but he's real hospitable yea? At least his family is. They treat him like a prince, always have lots and lots and lots of food for a meal. Ok, but he's smart too. And i'll admit tt he can be kinda disciplined AT TIMES. Choose what u really enjoy to study, yet bearing the future in mind too yea? Triple science, double science, watever. Don't let others tell ya wat to choose. Be clear bout wat ya want. I'm sure your parents will be proud of u. You have my support.

- Pig 2: Sleepiest and have the greatest capacity to emo (it seems) He's perpetually nocturnal, seriously... He can be really insightful. Man, you dun realise how philosophical u get at times, but being insightful's great. Just tt it's real pointless to get lost in your thoughts so.. just take some action. You're more valuable than u look, so dun let the past stop u from aiming for great things. Keep daring to dream!

- Pig 3: Well well well... the Loudest and.. erm.. well.. probably have the most total surface area (HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA) I love seeing him going for detention because he's late... Can always laugh at him conveniently!!!! OMG. ok, abit sadistic here. It's great to be truthful, and i know you're learning to be more sensitive so yup, jia you. Can see tt you're genuinely concerned bout pple and upholding their justice, lol. I'll miss laughing at you. BWAHAHAHAHAHA!

ok, so like i've said, anyone i missed out, which is MOST pple, thanks for contributing in some way or another. I've learnt lots and gotta engage in newer challenges ahead! keep in touch!

I'm Moving Away~

2009-07-18T09:26:00.000-07:00

Yeah... first up, seems like i'll be moving house soon. Not sure when, but soon. My folks are considering places from as near as bishan to as far as Sengkang. Better try out all the stuffs ard here b4 its too late! lol. Gonna miss this place i'm sure, lots of memories, so i won't deny tt this place will be missed.

And i'm moving away from NCHS too! Moved actually. Going to play with smaller imps in a primary school. Smaller, yes, but still imps i'm sure. LOL. Well it's nearer at least, somewhere in Toa Payoh, unless i end up shifting to Sengkang or Hougang... (wat a joke) Maybe i'll do a Hall of Fame post for some NCHS peeps eh, like those who really made the exp there memorable... Will be a kinda long post tho....

So we gotta move on in life! The past definitely left some good things as well as bad, but it's up to us how we handle wat the past has given us yea? Either be trapped in it or let it build strength in our lives.

A man who looks to the past stays in the past, he who looks to the future, has a future.

My Love-Hate Relationship

2009-07-08T03:14:00.001-07:00

Someone told me at work before that the computer and systems are totally dependable. If there's anything that goes wrong, it's the user's fault. And so when my workstation is slow and can't even send emails, i am seen as the problem. After a series of fault-finding and a real frustrating time, it turns out that the computer was already infected with plenty of virus. So much for the company providing their best and reliable computers. Obviously, that didn't go down very well with me, a person who's paranoid about trusting in machines.

Right, so i don't have very good affinity with machines. We kind of like share a love-hate relationship. The computer's connection doesn't really do what i want, the handphone's clock isnt' all that reliable... and EVEN the vacuum cleaner is against me. ARRGGHH....

I'm clinging on to the hope that heaven has no need for machines. If God is almighty, it means no need to depend on machines!

Transformers! - Edited

2009-06-28T19:46:00.000-07:00

Ok! There's a slight edition to this post. Anyways, this is one of the few movies tt i've watched more than once. To be exact, it's THREE times. It's pretty ok for me, though it doesn't drive me to wanna watch it again and again.. (sooo looong). But i did have a great time though. It's not really about the movie, but it's the company tt counts yea? ok, so it may look stupid to be watching something more than once when it is only just okay to me. But i guess to all those whom i've watched this movie with, you are worth tt time and $$$ (and stupidity :p). But shan't do this too often. Haxx...

Changin'

2009-06-22T06:03:00.000-07:00

He used to be so full of hope. Quite emotional, yet sensible enough for a 14 year-old. Once at the brink of a fresh start and full of convictions, but now it's all different. Everything bout all those good things seem to have changed.

This is one change I don't want to see anymore. This is one history I don't want to see repeated. It's enough.

I Have No Religion

2009-06-15T21:36:00.000-07:00

"Religion is not the most important thing in my life." I agree totally. I'm not interested in a "must do this, don't do that" kind of life. So, I don't do religion. Technically, I don't have one. I'm just being a messenger of a piece of good news that I've come across, regardless of whether this world wanna hear it or not. And a part of this good news says that there is a way to the most important thing.

Night Cycling

2009-06-14T06:49:00.000-07:00

Night Cycling's finally over! So there were many hiccups BEFORE we even started, but we still pulled through! Started at Old Choa Chu Kang Road, on to Mandai Road, down Upper Thomson Road to Bishan, Bartley Road, Paya Lebar and finally East Coast! Passing by some of the key camps along the way... It's the first time for many and some only started learning a few days b4, but we still did it. Really heartened to see how most of the brothers were concerned about the slower ones and doing what they can to support them. This whole event isn't about being the first one to complete the whole route but rather to see each other through to the end. Good job everyone! Let this be symbolic of us being united to really see the NEW THING that's gonna be done in NS ministry! Jia you.

There Must Be More Than This

2009-06-11T02:54:00.000-07:00

"Sianz", "Could there have been more?" and "Why does it not seem as happening as I hope for it to be?" are questions that many people may ask after some events or occassions. Whether it was voiced out or something that we secretly wonder to ourselves, it remains that people are always hoping for something more. We look forward to an event/occassion with the hope of it being really fulfilling. Yet, the way things play out, it felt superficial, with the lingering sense of "I want something more". Life was definitely hard-going when my days went past just like that with these unmet longings and expectations. I'm reminded once again of the need and purpose for a deep and genuine fellowship, and when we gather for a purpose that is higher than ourselves - that is what differentiates us from the world out there. True, certain activities and things we do are probably the same as everyone else, but the significance and meaning behind those things are defninitely much more fulfilling. Going beyond superficial friendships, we bring each other to a purpose that's much bigger than just for ourselves. And I'm glad to be part of it.

On a lighter note, went for chalet with those little dudes. Revisited WWW after like a few years? Lol. Pretty ok for me since I don't go there often. Bumped into Jason and gang, entertained myself by watching ZC and Nic having their water fights. And I've proven my dominance over Gerald in the water! Outcome of War of the Floats - Ah Lee dominated and beat G hands down! Ultimate moves like "Kick Splash" and making use of the terrain and resources were the keys to win. LOL. Ok, so I had fun fanning the fire for bbq, showering people with ashes. :P Also celebrated Nat's birthday and think she had a great time. Now, gotta catch up on sleep b4 Night Cycling this Sat... Haxx...

Tremble B4 The Deathscythe (no more)

2009-06-09T03:08:00.000-07:00

I've come across some interesting thoughts and experiences recently so thought I'll try to make sense of some of them.

Death is boring. Death is scary. Death is just a pitch of black darkness where one roams around. Endlessly. People fear it cause it'll be torturous to be still like that forever. People look forward to it cause they wanna... hmm.. stop being human and live a simple life of, say... a horse or an eagle? Some are tired of it cause it'll just be a never ending cycle.

Well.. then y bother making the best of this life if all will be lost? In the end, it doesn't even matter, yea?

Dear Mr Joel Lee is enjoying life in his Europe tour now. Life has never been better for him. He talks over a glass of wine everyday cause it is cheaper than water. He's seeing the sights of beautiful scenery. Not to mention the absence of a treacherously hot weather like tt of Singapore. Visiting the Swiss Alps and the different iconic buildings in Europe. So i'm a bit envious. But not for long I guess.

Because after I really make this life count for an eternal purpose, I know it'll be an ending way better than all those luxuries mentioned. It won't even be about the luxuries, but it's where the enduring love lasts forever.

I used to fear the moment when my time here on earth is up, but now it's just a passing phase to something better.

Thanks for making a way. Don't wanna take it for granted anymore.

Presenting "The Greatest Woman" Award...

2009-06-06T22:51:00.000-07:00

This post is dedicated to the greatest woman in my life, (though i know she won't be reading this post since she hates computers): HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Yep, 7 June's my mum's birthday. And yes, whoever becomes my life partner has got to accept the fact tt the trophy for "The Greatest Woman" still goes to my mum. Of course, my life partner can have her chances with other trophies like "Most Beloved Woman" or "Most Cherished Woman". In any case, she wouldn't have found a gem like me if not for my mum! :D So, as a practical gift, think I'll try to get my mum, maybe even force her, to accept my subsidy for her camp fee... haha... VERY practical indeed.

Abit painful on my coffers, but, I know she'll have a great, refreshing and divine encounter this camp, and I think that's the best I can do to contribute in a tangible way for now.

In the end, as much as I can try, there is still one who loves her more and is able to take better care of her then me. And tt's a great assurance. :)

Level 0 to Level 10 Chicken Wings!

2009-06-06T22:23:00.000-07:00

This is officially the first post about my experience in the UNI-YA MSM team. WJ and Co. decided that we should go for some imba spicy buffalo sauce-marinated chicken wings at Seletar air base for supper. The place is has got quite a nice ambience and a range of spicy wings ranging from Level 1 to 10! 10 being the most spicy. My limit was level 3... haxx. Lvl 4 was enough to kill most peeps. Don't even wanna think abou level 10! Heard they give cerificates for conquering level 10... Thank God they have Level 0, for noobs (like me). OH, and root beer plus tiger beer has got an interesting taste. Courtesy of David, for concocting this Tiger Root Beer.. haha. Maybe this is Tiger Woods' secret recipe to playing golf well, hurhurhur.

Anyway, our meeting lasted from 930pm at 1230am. Sharing bout the different leader's experiences and insights to how His hands are moving throughout the different ministries and praying for differen things. So, i'm not really into late nights. I don't do well from lack of sleep.zzZZ LOL. But if this is one way to contribute to a significant and lasting purpose, then I guess it's worth it. Oh, an interesing convo tt i recall.

- 12am, no one else ard, in an open place with stars glittering in the night sky -
TIOMthy: Let's get on to PRAY
Boss: Haha, Tim is tired le
TIOMthy: Yes, so let's get on with it.
Boss: Whoa, take the time to appreciate the moment la!

Well, I did appreciate the moment. For like 5s. And i think tt's enuff. So yes, we shld get on with it... yawnz

I Promised To Do This So Here We Go...

2009-06-04T06:43:00.000-07:00

Many thanks to MR TENG KAI SIANG for doing the mixpod, LOL. Have a great bashing birthday and enjoy your trip to Australia.

Adi-Ke

2009-06-02T10:21:00.000-07:00

ok, so i did one of the craziest thing so far.. like just 4 days into holiday. Covered the whole disance from my house to Seng Kang on foot. Right, so bascially, i jogged. It's an accomplishment! ok, so i did cheated. I had a total of 15min walking and 15min of pause to get a drink. At least the other 1 hour 15 min was pure running! So cut me some slack, I haven't ran for like months! It's a breakthrough for me and oh! It wasn't tt hot. Someone was literally sheltering me with an ummbrella of clouds the whole time round. Lol. The thought of this whole afernoon still seems so unbelievable. But then again, for the COG... Impossible Is Nothing. So... Just Do It!

lol... maybe i have a flair for advertisments...

They Do Try Hard To Stand Together

2009-06-01T20:42:00.000-07:00

Gonzo IE: I thought they were so close, why would they be against one another now?
Gonzo B : Your whole bunch used to be friends a few months ago too.
Gonzo IE: Hmm.. true. zzZZ

Interaction between people is complicated and ever-changing. So and so were the best of allies, but now no more. So and so used to be BFF, but now they are like EFE. This happens everywhere. In the office, in the classroom, in camps, even at home. The buddy who used to cover you under firing movement suddenly backstabs u. The classmates u helped with their studies attained more aces than u and then, poof, they just can't seem to notice u anywhere in their lives.

Imperfect people make up the different institutions in this world. And it seems like remaining united and having acceptance towards one another calls for a power beyond this world. And there is such an institution that have access to this out-of-the-world power. Thus, it is the only one institution that stands a chance of achieving that unity and acceptance that everyone (some secretly) longs for. And since it's available for all, why wouldn't I wanna be part of it? Why wouldn't u?

Just being thankful to be part of this refuge. Despite the imperfect pple in it.

THE WHOLE BIBLE

2009-06-01T05:13:00.000-07:00

To the rocker who expects me to post overwhelming amounts of contents when i haven't even totally got he hang of blogging.

Here it is:

THE WHOLE BIBLE

now tt's more contents than all u ever had to post. :)

Alas

2009-06-01T00:23:00.000-07:00

Finally... this blog can finally show face! Ok, i've put the credits to some of the key people in helping this blog to get started up and running, but i'll mention it here again, in case pple dun look at the bottom of the page. So here i go: Sis Cong, who conveniently stepped in when Zyann and Co overnighted. Also, thx to T.K.S. who kindly offered to give some pointers too tho he was awaiting his "doom", also to my mercenarious Mr Itchy Egg, who ya-ya papaya-ed his way throughout the whole time but miraculously brought the blog to life! And Shem, who tutored me to tagboard! ok, tt's bout it for now...

2009-05-31T22:32:00.001-07:00

lala

Rocky Start

2009-05-30T10:04:00.000-07:00

Test Test... this is harder than I thought! Lol

Rocky Start

2009-05-30T09:53:00.001-07:00

OMG, this was harder than I thought. ok, so i'm noob at this. Gotta test things out a few more times. Test Test

Another attempt at Blogging

2009-05-28T06:42:00.000-07:00

Test Test. Another attempt at blogging. No sure how long it'll last. Heh.